Adequacy

(The theme was "It was not an emotion I knew by heart". Sadly, this one still isn’t.)

Survivor’s guilt for accepting money
and not simply doing what needs done,
even if someone else tells me
it’s no real strain to their budget
and my mom reminds me often
I need to start paying more bills,
myself

Every moment aware of others' sacrifices
that allow me to have the life I adore.
Eat, sleep, and breathe Spiderman’s cliché.
and feel much shame for deciding I deserve
even one day off, every 21.